if my parents knew what im going through, i swear they would disown me.

i broke up with kai on the 11th of feb, 3 days after our 2 year anniversary. i feel as though i left him up there to die. to be crucified. sacrificed for my own selfish interests. gosh i miss him.
there are so many things i need to do. so many things to settle. kai has always been there, supporting. even when i had absolutely no time for him, he didnt mind. but now, ive dropped him. jus slap me

its my lifes regret i let him go.

i dont wanna think of it. but memories of kai and me. the happy moments. the many times he hugged me tight, telling me how life was worth living. and me n tt guy. they are just a procession, tramping through the corridors in my head, ever so quick stepping, and ever so swift. like tiny silver metal discs they diffuse, cutting deep and ever so eternally.

the darkness. it never ends.