ha. i was kinda overreacting in the last post, so if u guys are afraid or worried for me, dont ya?

anyway, the hours are shiong. my boats work on a many crew system..which basically means there are 2 teams of people, each able to operate independently..so when one team sails, the other team rests..and vice versa. but since i am under training, my officers feel that it is of good training value that i sail with both teams..so voila! I SAIL VERY OFTEN. not that im spiteful..but most of the time im super tired. the hours when im sailing is i keep 6 on 6 off..6 hours of shift then rest..then 6 hours again..each sail trip takes 3 days 2 nights..so guys, if im not able to make it for meetings, im very very sorry once again.

but, the sailings are fun..at times. its very operational.. we sail to pedra branca. and oftentimes, we meet up with M's__ of Ind____'s ships. so yeap..we get to like play cat and mouse with them..or we get to go investigate ships pr crafts suspected of smugglin etc. so things get quite interesting. and the crew on my ship are very nice. the first sailing when i got really seasick cos the sea state over at indo's side is really rough, they offered sweets and many tips about how to stay calm and not puke. yeap..so things arent really that bad. plus they are like a family. just before steerin the ship to make a u-turn ( in layman's terms), they will shout down to the kitchen to warn the chef cos once when they forgot to, the chef had soup spilt all over the floor..haha

i dun really wanna be open with this blog..so whoever stumbles on this, please dont spread the add k? thanks..anyway, im trying real hard to be optimistic. and happy..but im really too tired..i have deadlines to meet, tests to take, expectations to meet. but whatever does not break me makes me tougher. mental and physical stress, ill take them all..

thank u kai for standing by me all this time. even though ive been a total slut, getting myself entwined with so many guys and not making my stand firm, not knowing that i have u and that is all i need. thank u shoes for remembering my bday. i was very touched. and standing by my decisions, supporting. thank u friends..love u guys