its been a long time since i blogged. been busy and weekends have been quite filled up. i still have meetings w rah mei, binjuan, y8uth to attend but haven had the chance to cos last weekend was cheryl's party, then joyces party, this weekend is fathers day and next week is ah gongs bday. haven met up w shoes in a long time too, heard she's overseas but i never really found out cos she din tell me.

have been doing fire fighting n damage control in the past 2 weeks. very drastic changes, from sweating profusely in the thick fire suit, breathing with difficulty thru the breathing apparatus and sweltering, melting in the flashover container, carrying casualties up and down hatches and struggling to handle the thick hose to plugging holes with water rushing into your face, trying to fix ruptured pipes when u are breathing water.. in all, the 2 weeks were a real eye opener, very refreshing change from lessons held in MCR 4 all day long. but next week is back to normal..and sigh.

also, the sms people went for the final review board. i used to tell myself that ill jus try my best and get over not getting sms and being a second class citizen. i thought i was over it, but somehow, the bare reality, the cold hard truth hits me in the face again and again. i cant seem to get over it, to stand up, to know that i am really a class lower than the rest.

i wish zy will just go. im super irritated with her. she's like trying to prove that she's nice in front of the guys and wayang is the way to go for her. but she doesnt help w area cleaning and shes a freaking hypocrite. and win is not staying for mstd, so i have to handle all tht shit w zy alone w est. i hope i make it through.

this week met up w joyce n ilynn whose back frm aust. went indochine for dinner but jus drank pretty in pink, some juice concoction cos im broke. dun wanna spend so much money. but this book out has been pretty sian diao cos kai has guard duty. i miss him alot. i never thought ill think about a person that much till i met kai. he's totally like a dream come true, magical fairy tale. at this moment in time, i cant help but to feel happy cos ill be meeting him in less than 10 hours, its been a long long wait.

hi dear, i love u