When I survey the wonderous cross
On which the Prince of Glory died
My richest gain I count but loss
And pour contempt on all my pride

See from his head, his hands, his feet
sorrow and love flow mingled down
Did e'r such love and sorrow meet
or thorns compose so rich a crown

O the wonderful Cross, Oh the wonderful Cross
Bids me come and die and find that I may truly live
Oh the wonderful Cross, Oh the Wonderful Cross
All who gather here by grace draw near and bless your name

heard this song in service today. the bible says in matt 24 that with the end of the world comes more earthquakes n destruction. and when the last day of judgement comes, am i pure enough to come before the lord who died on the cross for me.

love n sorrow. the picture of jesus christ, nailed fast on the cross, insults hurled at him, accusations flung straight in his face. the thorns pierced into his scalp, the whips laced with thorns tore into his flesh, his ligaments exposed to the cold piercing air. with each whip, blow, he tolerated the pain, blood flowing, yet he never cursed, he never swore. such love. and sorrow.

someone asked me if i have made any new year resolutions. i wouldnt wish for good results, better figure etc. these things of the world though glorious and magnificent are transcient and would pass. i resolve to find peace within myself, to lean on God for strength and refuge. regardless of the circumstances and situations i find myself in, i will be strong. no longer will i cut my wrist or try to jump out of the window. it is not in Gods plan for me.

anyway, i met a pervert on the bus today. other interesting thing tt happened was me getting stuck in a jam along orchard for one hr n 15 mins. my butt rotted. but vnr juniors were really nice, treating me to pizza and chocs. kai is at spore myanmar match and i desperately need to go repair my comp tomoro. paul offered to help me carry my comp around but its kai i want and need. sometimes i wonder if im asking too much of him. afterall, he IS happy jus not meeting and knowing that we are both in love. but i find it so hard to reconcile.