med check today took 4 freaking hours. sitting there with everyone staring at the " wads tt fat girl doing here" look wasnt all that pleasant. plus stewpid me didnt bring anyting to read or do. in the end carried out sms conversations with ruomei, paul etc. ecg was kinda horrible where they pushed suckers into ur breasts and force u to breathe deep with ur entire upper body exposed to the cold air. eye test was rapid w officers barking at u and dental was one experience where u get a good looking guy with bad breath staring into ur mouth.

i should really feel blessed becos i supposedly got offered the most prestigious scholarship for women in the saf. fareena was feeling vexed cos she got offered some saf academic thingy which means she gets an overseas education but starts studies late. i should feel blessed and im blessed becos i asked God for guidance and this is wad he has given me. plus i think im getting a really good deal, like free slimming prog, 1800 a month and a chance to toughen up. am i convinced? im confused still. i mean, it seems pretty obvious that this is the path im supposed to take to everyone else. hmm. time will work things out, but am gonna sign contract tomoro.


just shoed me says:
kai gives u the sort of security u can't find frm other guys..

its true, cos kai gives me the trust and it will take the world to make him feel jealous. he doesnt mind me going out solo with guys and even when i dun have enough time for him hes always there. thank you lord for him. thanks shoes, u help me realise how blessed my little wretched life really is.

met tongkai n lynn together in citylink today while out w rac n sujuan. zihui kept saying that she cant imagine me in the military. in a way, ive really changed. its weird how pple change so much that the pple arnd u cant comprehend why. soup spoon or soup bowl in raffles city has really yummy soup, try the mushroom chicken pot pie. hee